Specially dedicated to Her...
I've read your post, and was glad you felt happy for us and wished the best for us.
One thing for you to know is that, I never hated you before.
Whatever you did that you thought was immature, its all in the past. It was between you and Apit, even though we quarreled in the phone before ; ) Everyone has their own ups and downs in Love/Friendship/Marriage. You might neglect him before, but now God has given him someone to cherish him. Same goes to everyone else. Good or bad, depends on us. And the way out, is to seek for forgiveness. Forgiveness won't change the past, but will enlarge the future. I never have the feeling of wanting to fight/beat you. But deep down, I always look forward to seeing you. Ask Apit if you want. Like when we go see Tedja, I would ask him. "D, e*** tak de eh? Lau nampak bilang I tau". He once said, "U nih tak abis2 e***, u lesbian eh?" Hehe.. I really looked forward and hope to see you outside. Just wanna see, who's that girl who drive him crazy in love,in the past. We both have moved on in life, Apit, Me and You. So forget the past, aite?
About me, well.... mum ask me to move back. I don't know when will I move back. Because staying back there means going through the same hypocrisy again. But I really looked forward, no place is as comfortable as our own home right? I really can't adapt to living with in laws. I can't adapt to the environment, and not used to having a small bro n sis around. And I HATE KUDE KEPANG!!! hehehe... See how, Hubby refuse to discuss the matter. Maybe he wants more time with his family first. So I guess I have to wait for the buah to jatoh boi!
Hubby is now a Hang Kebun. He has his mini garden outside. He plants Curry, Bird's eye chili
(cili padi), Lime ,and Sireh... And he's good at it. His plants are beautiful and healthy.
Oh yea, another thing I hate about staying at hubby's parent's place, its CREEPY!!! I swear I fucking saw a fucking Banshee (Pontianak) by the hills near the PIE. And Qisya was distubed in her sleep, she woke up, called to me and point to the window. Spooky right? And I'm pregnant somemore. Must be careful. Hope hubby made up his mind quick.
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This is a new post squeezed in. I was afraid that she couldn't read the post earlier on if I were to do a new one.
My elder brother is getting married 3 weeks later. I promised to sponsor him 2 trays of gift for the bride. So I have to go here and there, especially to Joo Chiat Complex to find the accessories like basket, ribbons and stuff. But with my big belly, I couldn't manage all that while bringing Qisya here and there. Sometimes when I carry her, I could feel her leg pressing her lil sister inside. So I talk to hubby, hoping that we could move back to my parent's place asap. At least, I have my mum,uncle and siblings to keep an eye on her. She's close to my family. But hubby told me to be patient. Patient?? I have 3 weeks to finish all that, also to find an outfit I could fit in for that big day. How to be patient when there's not much time left. I swear, I feel like running away from his home. Everytime I went out, not contacting or reply his msgs, his knee would tremble. Feel like trying. Hahaha.. The runaway wife! No lah.. But I don't know how else could I make him understand the fact that I'm not comfortable living there!!
Everytime my eyes stares out the window, he ask, "Ma, pikir ape? Tak muh pikir2 bnyk la"
How can I not think..think of a way to return to my home..?
My head hurts since I woke up this morning. Must be from too much thinking.
Ya Allah, tolong berikan aku petunjuk!
Hubby text me, that we'll go out this sat to find the stuff. Hold on, he off once a week. So he got a total of 2 off days before his off on the big day. So i got 2 days to find the stuff? Eeee....Tak masuk akal btol!
Really stressed up! Last night before we went to sleep, after our romantic routine..he asked me if I loved him.. I say, I loved u, kissed him and say much more than just love.
Should have said No if I knew he was making things hard for me..Wakakakaka....!
Bacin la..
Friends, do add me up in msn. Damn bored!
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